Blindfold Chronicle - First Up
Written by N Maxell Lander Wednesday, 03 February 2010 04:51
January was interesting. and overall not as productive as i wanted it to be. but alas, we are not in february and i do not wish to dwell! i was working on One of the blindfold shoots i did recently and had a thought, what if i started blogging a blindfold diary? i am embarking (or have embarked already) on a photographic adventure. it is meant to be an experiment, and an exploration. most people who do these kinds of things on a regular basis like to keep track of their progress, so why shouldn't i? and hell, why not publicly. So welcome to something i hope will become a regular feature here, The blindfold diary. or maybe log, the blindfold log? i hate the word diary... ooh ooh chronicle! the blindfold chronicle! i know its dorky, but fucking better than diary.
I shot my first blindfold shoot a while back. i wish i had thought to write this down earlier, as i feel like it may end up being the most interesting one. you always remember your first time right? it was definitely one of the most interesting photographic experiences i feel like i've ever had. i feel like i should preface this - if you haven't read the statement about what the blindfold project is, go do it now! done that? good, back to me. This was the first time I'd ever shot Amber. something i think we both found to be strange as we've known each other for years now. in honour of this and the awkwardness that can exist during peoples first shoot (both for me and for them), we decided not to just jump into the blindfold project. every time i shoot someone new (especially naked) there is a good chunk of time that must be dedicated to getting them comfortable in front of the camera, this is ridiculous time. there was a ladder involved. it was fun and totally fine and i think there may even have been some good stuff in there, but that wasn't hugely my intent with that time. after spending a good chunk of time getting comfy, we dove in. and holy fuck, did everything shift. i felt Amber become more comfortable, even just through the conversation we were having (which i hope is true, cause otherwise i don't know what i felt...), but even more than that, i felt me shift. i got awkward and uncomfortable and super vulnerable. it was great. i really had no idea whether or not what i thought would happen would. i had no idea that i would have guessed right, that the power dynamic would be totally fucked with. but it was. and to speak purely from my point of view, it was massively fucked with. i've had my fair share of blindfolded experiences in my life, but had thought that maybe when taken out of a sexual scenario it would seem less vulnerable. not true. and it was hot. i don't know if that was because of the nature of our conversion or something specific about my dynamic with Amber, but i totally found it to be and exciting experience. maybe i was just more aware of the various kinds of tension in attendance... regardless, i left the shoot deeming it a successful experiment, and an excellent project. and maybe someday (in the book that intend to make) you can here what Amber thought of it.
Also, i am keeping my favourite shots for the book. so really, this is all just a giant teaser!
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